Hey, I'm an A-hole, but even I think the OP deserves a break here! It's not an ugly fly. It's what it's supposed to be. You read some of the advice on tube flies and folks are saying grind down a hook or a bicycle spoke! It's a little intimidating. Nobody else had their first attempts almost finished when they suddenly spun and unraveled completely? I did. And I was a grade-A badass tyer when I first ventured into tube tying. Can't we all just get along?